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I will pour the water down upon a thirsty barron land
And streams will flow
From the dust of your bruised and broken soul
And you will grow like the grass
Upon the fertile plains of Asia by the streams
Of living water you will grow
Oh.. you will grow  …… Daniel Beddingfield

About six and a bit years ago, I belief that this promise was made to me.  How it came about is a whole different story.  But you see, I belief in God.  My daughter died, and I did not understand why.  The night before her heart stopped, I prayed:  “God I do not understand, but I trust your hand in this.  It was a tough pill to swallow but throughout this time I was held.  I was taken care of.  I never understood the words of this song.  It was just a nice tune, until then.  The words began to have meaning.

I still often sing this as I smile and see my life being blessed in so many ways.  It is not all happy moments, but I had a life lesson that broke my heart and I am stronger because of it.  In the last year we have lost two more babies, one of them a baby boy and the other one’s sex is unknown.  We have lost, but something in my heart was always preparing me for this.  Something told me every time that this is going to happen and it is going to be ok.  That I am going to be ok.

Right now I am OK.  We were yet again blessed with another baby.  We still have a way to go before we will be holding this baby in our arms, but we still have hope  that this will all go well. Knowing that we were the 1% once, makes us one of the 1 % forever, but we take it one day at a time and every day that goes by is a blessing, a promise fullfilled, and we say thank you every night for what we were given already……almost five years of parenthood and looking at these little faces every day.

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  • May 25, 2017 - 2:27 pm

    Justine Curran - Ohh my gosh Juanita, I had no idea it was more than one baby. I am hoping and praying that this is a wonderful and blissful pregnancy for you. You all have been through so much, my heart just breaks for you xxxxReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 5:15 pm

    Chloe - Absolutely gorgeous. So often we see the happy smiling faces of children and yet we know so little of the Mother’s journey to the moment when they hold those children in their arms. Sending you so much love and strength and wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy. My fingers are crossed and prayers will be said for you xxReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 7:50 pm

    Tara - Oh Juanita, my heart absolutely breaks for you and at the same time I’m so hopeful too. Your children have such joy and innocence and I love how you have turned a small moment into a little pocket of happiness.ReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 8:35 pm

    Kelly - Oh thank you for sharing your story, your pain & your joy Juanita, I’m so sorry for your losses… And so very happy for your news. Congrats & wishing you well. Oh & those cheeky monkeys in the photos, gorgeous moments captured.ReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 8:53 pm

    Yana Klein - i am so sorry Juanita! i hope there is no more heartbreak for you <3ReplyCancel