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It is winter and wet and not really that cold, but cold enough to say it is winter.  We are operating on Code Red at this stage.  I am not doing pregnancy well.  It is hard work.  I have one mission.  To get my family through this unscarred.  I am greatfull that it is winter and that life is busy. That way I do not feel to bad that we hardly get any beach time these days.  I cannot trust myself to keep them safe when the whole ocean is there to swallow them.  We do fun stuff at home, which by now, by the way, is a maze of toys and other random stuff.  They build tunnels, out of old boxes, to each others rooms.  Hannah moved into Bradley’s room, with all her favourite stuff, and Bradley joined in and moved to her room, and the result is caos.  We do art, we sew, we bake.  When it gets to much, I let them bath for as long as they want to.  It keeps their busy minds occupied and it gives my body a rest.

This is a very great full time for us.  We are cherishing every moment with our growing baby.  We wait patiently, and we all do what we can to keep this baby safe.  We are OK, and moments like these, give us new breath to take another step.  To march on.  To cherish life.

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I will pour the water down upon a thirsty barron land
And streams will flow
From the dust of your bruised and broken soul
And you will grow like the grass
Upon the fertile plains of Asia by the streams
Of living water you will grow
Oh.. you will grow  …… Daniel Beddingfield

About six and a bit years ago, I belief that this promise was made to me.  How it came about is a whole different story.  But you see, I belief in God.  My daughter died, and I did not understand why.  The night before her heart stopped, I prayed:  “God I do not understand, but I trust your hand in this.  It was a tough pill to swallow but throughout this time I was held.  I was taken care of.  I never understood the words of this song.  It was just a nice tune, until then.  The words began to have meaning.

I still often sing this as I smile and see my life being blessed in so many ways.  It is not all happy moments, but I had a life lesson that broke my heart and I am stronger because of it.  In the last year we have lost two more babies, one of them a baby boy and the other one’s sex is unknown.  We have lost, but something in my heart was always preparing me for this.  Something told me every time that this is going to happen and it is going to be ok.  That I am going to be ok.

Right now I am OK.  We were yet again blessed with another baby.  We still have a way to go before we will be holding this baby in our arms, but we still have hope  that this will all go well. Knowing that we were the 1% once, makes us one of the 1 % forever, but we take it one day at a time and every day that goes by is a blessing, a promise fullfilled, and we say thank you every night for what we were given already……almost five years of parenthood and looking at these little faces every day.

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  • May 25, 2017 - 2:27 pm

    Justine Curran - Ohh my gosh Juanita, I had no idea it was more than one baby. I am hoping and praying that this is a wonderful and blissful pregnancy for you. You all have been through so much, my heart just breaks for you xxxxReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 5:15 pm

    Chloe - Absolutely gorgeous. So often we see the happy smiling faces of children and yet we know so little of the Mother’s journey to the moment when they hold those children in their arms. Sending you so much love and strength and wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy. My fingers are crossed and prayers will be said for you xxReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 7:50 pm

    Tara - Oh Juanita, my heart absolutely breaks for you and at the same time I’m so hopeful too. Your children have such joy and innocence and I love how you have turned a small moment into a little pocket of happiness.ReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 8:35 pm

    Kelly - Oh thank you for sharing your story, your pain & your joy Juanita, I’m so sorry for your losses… And so very happy for your news. Congrats & wishing you well. Oh & those cheeky monkeys in the photos, gorgeous moments captured.ReplyCancel

  • May 25, 2017 - 8:53 pm

    Yana Klein - i am so sorry Juanita! i hope there is no more heartbreak for you <3ReplyCancel

We have been out of action for a little while with the camera, but during the weekend we went driving and fishing on the beach and while my husband was fishing, Bradley was sleeping and Hannah was building a sand castle I was sitting in the shade of the car and taking some random photos of her.  I cannot belief how much she has grown.  She went to sleep one night and woke up a number bigger.  It is her last year of being a pre-schooler and I am so grateful for this extra year we have.  My wild child is calming down and is acting very mature for a almost 5 year old at times, and them other times she is just the little girl that she is.  I want to soak it all up.  Enjoy her periods of wild and her moments of calm.  She is so special to me, and my heart always belonged to her.  Even before her birth.  She healed my heart in so many ways.  My little girl.
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  • April 27, 2017 - 11:12 am

    Lauren - Beautiful work 🙂 Always good to regroup and try to capture all the little features before they change too quickly.ReplyCancel

  • April 27, 2017 - 5:32 pm

    Polly - These are really lovely Juanita. I love the movement and the colours.ReplyCancel

  • April 27, 2017 - 8:50 pm

    Rachel - Beautifully captured <3ReplyCancel

  • April 29, 2017 - 8:04 pm

    Chloe - Stunning, so many treasured details. I love her little expressions too xxReplyCancel

  • May 2, 2017 - 6:43 am

    Justine Curran - oh my gosh yes soak it all up. My Abby kid growing so fast, she does not fit in my lap anymore and is almost the same size as me 😭ReplyCancel

  • May 7, 2017 - 11:54 am

    Yana Klein - Beautiful treasured memories captured Juanita xReplyCancel

She is wearing her “gymnastics” outfit, witch is really just a dress up costume that we’ve picked up from the op-shop.  She loves it and I think she looks really cute in it.  Jumping on the trampoline is the natural thing to do if you are dress like this, so that is what she did.  I love how she looks like a troll in the movie TROLLS.

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